Darling Nikki's Room (Paradox-like thoughts, of a non practicing nympho...)

The Nikki DaVinci Code

2011-10-14T19:46:00.000-05:00

If you've been following me a while then I know you've been waiting for my book. It took me a while to get around to this post but The Nikki DaVinci Code is here:

You can grab the Hardcopy or download the kindle version to mac, PC's, blackberry, iPhone and androids.

Welcome to my world

A beautiful mess

2010-08-14T19:26:00.000-05:00

I want to suck suck suck..
succumb to you,
no I'm not familiar,
but bring on your pillars
Delilah.
we can scratch holes in the sky call them stars
solicit this all black everything.
like the reaper handing wedding rings.
your nails playing tic tac toe down my back
where x marks the spot
and theres no safe word,
so we never stop...
I don't want to be safe from your lust
In fact I want to be near when that boiler busts..
wide open..
I was hoping
I was invited.
and maybe even deep off inside it..
cause love ain't a train but if it was I would come on and ride it..
You wanna teach me a lesson,
you think that I am so young..
but I'm taking your pain,
your teeth on my tongue
cranberry kisses,
your teeth could puncture my lungs..
and I still wouldn't say stop til your moans worthily sung
I have never succumb
but I know you're a seasoned vet...
my shirt would be stained..if a heart could get wet..
it's all bets off
you can have my sins,
my body,
my breath..
don't miss my heart
when those heels walk my chest..
make of me..
a beautiful mess..

Afterglow

2010-07-17T01:16:00.000-05:00

I wondered…

had you thought of me?

the swell of my hips you pulled close,

your lips wrapped in my teeth,

and how you looked right through me..

the wall behind me burned with my imprint,

the lingering bits of your scent,

cascading down my chest,

your mouth on my my open mouth,

mouthing promises before foundation..

I was waiting..

waiting for your solace to feed this hollow,

and we bathed each other in tongues,

I watched our shadows..

the bow of your back almost bent to gravitys end

as I dug deep into you… seeking soul,

loss of control,

untainted by life, untainted by lies,

untainted,

you came like the wind blows,

came through,

and I handed you blues,

heart abused, bruised, cruised and looked over..

handed you all the weight I had shouldered,

and you kissed,

kissing your way down my bodys subway,

went underground..

and we played between trains..

played dangerous,

played… will you remember me..?

and hips rocked steadily,

pumping need into each other,

waiting for the light,

the ever coming light, the bright of it

a pinprick in the distances dark,

the light of bursting open hearts,

the crash impending, I surrender..

speechlessness you now have rendered

but my moans, sighs, thoughts go wild with worry

world collapsing into a mass all blurry,

train against my skin..

takes me where I’ve been wanting to go…

beyond the crooked halo..

beyond what everyone thinks that they know..

and I bathe in your afterglow..

Falling up..

2010-05-20T16:08:00.003-05:00

The walls are closing in

And I want to be enclosed,

By her closing saccharine

The sweetest divide,

Hide from the world in your grandest canyon,

You are my cerulean woman,

Amongst all these motherf*cking blues…

And I won’t die but I’ll break

If you asked me too,

In my chests left cell..

Walls closing in,

Like some cubicle,

Some corporate hell..

And I want to dive deeper in

To feel you swell..

In that area where pride emanates,

And I love the way you elicit feelings of hate..

Make me want you, then need you,

Then ask me to wait..

I want to tear down your walls..

Self imposed dark

To cater to the lips of your heart,

Let me feed you the last of my light,

Did my naivety taste good at first bite?

Here I am..

In all my naked,

But you don’t want it

If you can’t take it..

So I’ll cry out if it pleases you,

Tie me if it pleases you..

Lie to me if it

…

Must I continue..

we are each others favorite sound,

my screaming, and your breathings

what keeps our love above ground

but where will you be

when it all falls

Merry to go round..

2010-05-20T14:50:00.001-05:00

Stiletto chiming heels down my minds hall,

Door knobs turning,

I have a burning desire to grab you

And tell you you’re mine,

Such a fine representation of my fantasies,

And I love the way our love

Is wrapped up in fallacies…

It’s true…

Because nothing so illusory as love can be real,

Without the elements of fiction it steals,

BUT I want you to be real,

Real enough to

Make me come…

to realizations,

And I lose patience,

When your tides, they rise and they fall,

You are my lovers ghost,

Replaced only by what I supposed,

And I want to have your mouth,

Can I have your mouth?

Take your lips and place them where they can settle

On territory that is not theirs,

And leaving me shaking in the darkness,

Phantom orgasms

The wetness challenging the sheets,

To saturate

And there is no sating,

No fullness, no completion,

Just have you, need you, want you, breathe you,

Then some soul eclipse..

Deletion

I want to be inside your throat like sound,

Mouth gagged,

So to me you are bound,

You are my consummate merry go round

And I want to ride you until your brakes screech their pain..

And the faces,

Their colors go plain,

My stomach filled with the tension

And fear of spinning that’s like jumping from the top..

That eventually your love will

finally reach it's

STOP.

Kiss and Tell

2010-05-14T19:25:00.003-05:00

Trail my mouth down her body,

Or hers, or HERS…

Whoever I’m touching

When I’m making love,

I know I make you wonder,

Because you stay ear to my business,

My business.

And who’s caught up in silence,

Or screamed themselves orgasm sticky..

Wondering who

Is climbing up Nikki.

And when she made me explode

Last time,

I could feel my pulse between my thighs,

Quicker than cells can divide..

The thump thump thumping,

Like emotions humping fully clothed,

Satisfaction,

Only a fabric away,

And I’m stitched up and through your skin,

As deeply embedded as melanin

And sin..

All the while there’s so much supposing,

Begging for disclosing,

All the while feelings growing,

Your stalkings become weary,

I know you want to taste the taste of her

Whoever it is that I’m kissing,

I’m usually loving someone

Someone else is missing,

MIA affections,

Forgive my heart its transgressions,

And it’s sweaty lovemaking sessions,

Shouts clinging to the ceiling all night,

Heartbeats seen through chests

What a sight..

Cause I know you want to know how I do what I do when it’s done..

Want to know how many or few have gotten my tongue,

But cats laughing, she’s won..

I don’t kiss and tell,

Not for you…

Or anyone…

Loving you is easy because I'm not sober

2010-05-14T17:08:00.002-05:00

This morning I got up before you and the sun, had you for breakfast..

With a side of sad to go with your warm..

Your stroke is like midnight,

Chiming,

12 times til you hit pussy rock bottom,

And then come up my throat,

I don’t want to walk over your coat,

Let the puddles be of my need,

I want to feed off the hotness of your breath,

Blood coursing to the center of me,

Is that you baby behind my eyes?

In my mind, our shadows made love a thousand times

Screamed my voice silent like mimes...

And I commit to you,

My favorite crime.

Stealing..

In the night hours

Stealing across time and space to meet you

For up against the wall f*cks

Proudly call loves bluff,

Cause it feels too damn good when you’re rough

To call it anything but..

L.U.S.T.

And love peeks over shoulders to watch while touching itself,

I know it's not in my hands but my mouth that you melt..

I swallow you no chaser

Burn throats, bitter as scotch,

I yearn for everything but

YOUR LOVE

Because...

I know what your love does,

See I can be your krypto,

Baby I can be your nite,

I can be your wrong

That feels so motherf*cking right..

Cause my tongue is as long as my mind...

Said I can put your life on what feels like rewind...

Feel young again... I've got the time

Slip into something more comfortable,

And comfortables my name…

Make it hurt because I’m craving you..

And all your bottled love

Labeled pain

CASSAndra-NOVA

2010-05-14T16:57:00.001-05:00

I fuck karma on her side to keep her off my back,

And when she leaves those blood red scratches,

I go deep until she’s out cold.. black..

Midway..

Beg her to pipe down,

Cause when you’re around, she yells louder,

And truth is the sex is so good

Can’t be without her..

Spread her with the intent to break her back

Like unfinished wood,

And in two I’m splitting,

All the while forgetting,

She might have other work to do..

I see her inside you,

Behind your eyes,

Replaying your sins,

And the cinematic affect has gotten the best..

Best of me,

Coughed up some silence

Labeled truth,

There’s nothing I can say to you,

Oh Cassanova,

Rather Cassandra…

You’re got rose buds for all the girls ears

Just want to breathe you in my atmosphere,

Some sweet ether

Making of my lungs, virgin

The inhalation of you collapsing them

In a pain I’ve come to need..

The feeling of you like the first breath after heartbreak..

Breathed..

Black widow

2010-05-14T15:32:00.000-05:00

Sunshine kisses your ears orange in the morning after,

Tears remind me of your tickled laughter,

Sweet coos sounding off like roman candles,

Some surprise deadly color for you,

Open my hands..

And my heart boasts a thousand loves

Times over,

Lives over,
the intricacy of them a well weaved web

Of seduction,

Cursed to bring out their dark bodied,

Words of poison,

Spit venom called truth in those who weren’t ready,

Hands held steady in the smothering,

Who is holding the pillow now?,

I crave your asphyxiation anyhow,

And I mouth words, like ouch

When it’s hurting me lovely,

I tell you to stop when I can’t get enough see..

Can I be the crime you’re nibbling?

Arsenic behind ears,

Leave your mouth dribbling,

Words that don’t make sense,

We aren’t too much different,

Strike before we are stricken,

And when my love hits your veins,

Your blood thickens…

Pull you to my lips, so you have to focus,

Listen..

Listen to my breathy words

Kissing your nose,

I told you to take off your clothes..

Take off your f*cking clothes,

I want to bathe you

And make love before it’s over…

When I say over I mean through,

Did I say over?.. I slipped..

I didn’t mean over for me,

But for you..

Jessica Rabid

2010-04-26T00:47:00.000-05:00

Oh miss Jessica,

Miss Jessica…

Rabbit of my most rabid desires…

Curves that bite back when I’m biting,

Lightning fast reaction, skin flushes red as your dress,

Temperature forgetting to adhere to worldly measures,

Caution thrown to tornados, let alone winds,

Winds can’t begin

To fathom, the desperation,

Of having desire and being plagued with impatience

Cause as Alicia would say it,

You don’t know my name,

But you’re beginning to fathom it..

And rather than take your time you’re itching,

And I want to leave those scarlet scratches,

That leave stains on your thirsty mattress,

Love is priceless,

And yes is gratis

I want to lay in your hair,

In our juxtaposing smells,

While we bang each others brains, off beat like frequencies catching static,

Body’s bumpin and grinding til morning like rabbits..

And you’ve got body, ooo

You’ve got body..

Won’t you warm my face with your thighs?

Let me be the coffee to swallow your cream… er..

Be the one who swallows your thoughts and tell you your dreams or,

Tell your conscience I will be your redeemer,

While I tiptoe your hearts mental streams

and lick you until you know that I mean..

business..

Miss Jessica,

Rabbit of sorts..

I want down the rabbit hole..

Want things beyond my own control..

Want deep inside your torrid soul..

Seduction of the Jellyfish

2010-04-26T00:07:00.005-05:00

Let me kill you…

Not softly, cause my names not lauryn,

But without mercy and make you painfully lay there enduring,

The during, the before and the after,

The laughter off lips that mate us for life,

Let me lay you in my heart tentacles,

Venomous and yet home to so few,

You can love here,

And I can love you…

But I don’t want you to thrive,

Heartbeat pumping blood to remain this alive,

Said I want to end it, for you..

Not massacre, nothing so insanely beautiful,

We can get close up in the dark

And wrestle to the death,

I want to pin you naked,

Conquer you

Until your spirit comes,

Orgasms fit for a queen,

Stretch you to each corner of the bed,

We can cut lovely,

F*ck roughly,

Your pretty lips look good bit hard,

Don’t be afraid, disregard

Your fight or flight,

Cause tonight..

I want to thrill you..

Watch your senses dance when blindfolded,

Push secrets into your mouth,

Tell time you won’t be where you told it,

Cause I want to kill you,

With your own hands round your throat,

Want you to participate,

Not just partake in the show..

Lay you out slow,

Hurts not so bad sweet lady..

I’m not your baby,

Your come home too type of lover,

Lost inside each other,

But I can make you get lost,

Feels like you’ve gone missing

From your body,

When I’m kiss kiss, kissing,

I’ve got your heart inside my hands

And don’t you understand?

Your vulnerable is delicious

Sweetly ferocious,

My need something vicious,

I want to play asphyxiation

Be patient..

Maybe I’ll let you leave…

Love the moments,

When you’re fighting to breathe,

My asthmatic,

I’m your inhaler,

Love to inhale her…

I take you to pieces,

Then I sew you up call me tailor..

Cause I want my hands around your neck,

You’re my favorite train wreck

Come hither,

Want to see you break open,

In fact I was hoping I could

Split you wide,

Up down motions,

Thought I told you,

These are menacing oceans,

There’s no safe in my lair…

I want to hurt you bad..return favors

Come close if you dare..

Girl 6 (Promises)

2010-04-24T03:39:00.002-05:00

If your lover is silence,

How can you cry out?

I lay your eyes on my lips,

Rest your fingertips..

Electrified by the touching you do

Without touching,

Your words slither down my throat

As I repeat them back to the wind.

Serpent green down my neck,

How did you perfect seduction?

My brains erection,

Suffering priapism,

And my liquid outpourings on pages.

Soul jism.

And all I can do is listen,

To the dial tone on my end,

Lip service delivering pleasure

That split skies open in rain,

And rectify notions that love must be pain

I lay awake chanting words you’ve said

So the falsified promises you bred

Won’t run track outside my head..

And the contact, is divine,

Said when you intersect my heart lines,

My back bends like parabola,

Was never too fond of mathematics,

But how many times will make me your addict?

Break mirrors with fists, cause only I am to blame,

I push my thoughts in so deep,

You’re left crying like your name is shame..

And I lick the tears of your insane…

Hoping to keep you inside me..

In vain

The redeemer

2010-04-24T03:34:00.000-05:00

Don’t want to be your lover,

Said your lover

Needs too many wiles

Too many nights forcing smiles,

Bearing you heart fruit,

I’m with child,

Immaculately producing truths,

To feed you..

I can bear no more,

Said these weeping willow branches are wore

With your needs,

Your, if you can’t be’s

I’ll find someone else,

You break me with stealth,

Professing forevers,

When you’re imagining nevers

And you’re chasing whomever

Is this weeks flavor,

When my creole has New York,

And my new york,

Can take you to manhattan and back

Welcome to the heart of my city,

And my city breathes streetcorner dreams

Along with my west indie seams..

I can make you cough up Guyana,

In one swift motion,

We cross land and ocean

And all your hoping all your groping

For another meets its final destination,

But I…

Don’t want to be your lover,

In fact my baggage has bags,

And my heart is jetlagged,

Come too far and too long,

To find you wining and dining another..

When you’ve already been knee deep

In the pit of true loves significant other..

And had the lover to

Dissipate all other lovers

No I don’t want to be your lover

Your lover needs too many wiles..

One day you’ll see

What you had all the while

love slave

2010-04-23T02:24:00.002-05:00

I was an apparition fading fast

When you cast shadow,

Other side of the moon bearing your prints.

I thought you were different..

Different,

I low key thought maybe I’d summoned

Some Venus

Some flower

Of unknown genus

I whispered tears into your palms

To cure the ash of centuries untouched by true love

And you made my breath catch like a criminal turning himself in

Voluntarily afraid

The crying got confused between sad and outward for lust

And I crushed myself in your heart pages.

Hoping you’d know me as your lover ageless

Still you aren’t sated

And all that’s fated

Is in pencil

I hope you are gentle in your leaving.

Cause all that want, it turned into needing

And I find it hard to be breaking and breathing

Concurrently

I collapse in your stratosphere,

And otherworldly languages crawl off elongated tongues

I become slave

Just to feel your lungs release on me..

Hurts like it should bleed

And I need..

The you that’s become part of me

We are closeted,

Our skeletons deep..

And the key swallowed..

Time pulls you close,

But our love bears tides..

We flow in the wetness of

Emaciated eyes

I find myself midnight listening for the train..

To take me to your far too worn bed..

Posts bearing secrets that walls have turned backs upon

And touches held dormant so eternally long..

create screams that turn whispers come dawn.

Poker Face

2010-04-23T02:20:00.002-05:00

I lay shell shocked,

The aftermath crawling up my neck

And the hairs there bare lip prints,

The skilled endurance

Of my hearts insurance,

Says you’re not deductible,

Seduction coils at the base of my bed,

And I appear behind your glasses,

Words that turned a heart that went hard

Flaccid

Crawl between your hair and neck

To count down your vertebrae,

If I know you better than you,

Maybe it’ll force you to stay..

Temperature settles to cold,

Where your hand baring spades,

Begs me to fold,

And yet I’ll always have

My poker face.

queen of hearts

2010-04-23T02:10:00.004-05:00

You and all your collecting beauties sh*t,

I grow as weary as a whore is of sucking dicks.

The slick spit of my secrets held taut for displaying

Wondering who the f*ck you’re laying,

Slaying dragons darling,

Don’t you make dreams come true..?

Make all the girls sings your blues..

And foolishly ooo yes foolish I am,

Here for the wham bam thank you ma’am

Labeled loving,

Here for the drugging..

And your roofie was unnecessary,

Weary footed wonders,

To match the falling blunder..

I was going to trip on your pseudo heart

Whether or not you asked me to play the part

Of joker,

To your queen of hearts..

Town crier warned me, still

I had to get my fill of you..

Swallowed all your red,

Left my indent in your bed,

Cried before the sunlight bled..

Its way into the sky,

And it felt so right..

To collapse into your charm..

That I wanted to die.. in your warm.

a blues for...

2010-04-23T02:08:00.001-05:00

Your silence crushes eardrums,

Strummed melodically,

I find myself

Killed soft..

The theory of loves relativity,

Defined in your fingernail

The ridges of them decked with small white spots of me,

And my many dreams of

Your cinnamon love

And your sax..

Yes I mean your sax..

You saxophone voice derivation,

Left my heartbeat limping to your syncopation.

And I was in that room, labeled waiting.

Hoping my name would be called

Hours in I found you sleeping on us,

Imagined my loved somehow rusted,

And all of the love and all of the lust it..

Came together in anger,

And my soul combusted.

Colored only

2010-04-23T00:28:00.002-05:00

Compose

And I devoured your tint..

Said I devoured your tint..

Hoping I could survive off melanin,

The pigment like some oil well to Africa..

My hair kinks with the sweat of your love..

I take your temperature with my tongue

Your clavicle jutting proud..

Love disguised as lust preciously

Devoured your beautiful lies

Pomegranate stained lips to caress me into thinking

It is summer..

And that your warm is free

There you are,

Lipstick on the collar of my dreams..

Every time I try to fall,

You send me running back into me..

And you are lacking lust….

er …

maybe I’m trying to say baby where’s your shine?

Where’d your shine go?

Chasing lovers..

Chasing others..

Moon light beaten on the ground..

eyes that blink with sound..

I devoured your tint..

Said I devoured it when..

I knew your I love yous were not meant..

Hoping time will be kind

When a corridor in an unfamiliar place

Holds remnants of your scent..

And I reach out a hand

to find I am tanned

with your loves melanin..

Speak now..or forever..

2010-04-20T01:57:00.001-05:00

Sweet nothings forget their integrity here

Silence is our dialect

Eyes connect on the same moon, and our tongues spill forth the nothingness that is

I love you..

Heart of a poet, breaking wide open forth in the ability to not describe

You

And all your Billie,

Your Olivia..

Your inside out personas,

I replace you with air,

Cause only what came before you can attempt to take your place.

And the race to our meeting again in that hallway called desire..

Or was it a streetcar?

I remember the us in the mornings milked orange..

Creamsicle drops of our souls nudity..

Like childhood.

And when you cried for me

That last time called never..

I hope your hurt did match the ache

Of my struggle internal

With my image after this wrong

Got me going in…circles..

Was it?

Spinning while standing still..

In the shadow of who we were when we walked free

Hand in hand in Syria,

Of was it Gaza..correct me now..

If you know me from your yester-life

And if I was your wife..?

Dear Love, RIP

2010-04-20T01:40:00.001-05:00

C’mere love, and love me

Let me tattoo goodbye in the back of my throat,

So I never forget you will go like you come..

Caught in my esophagus

You pinned yourself through my skin like sin,

Deeper than ink,

Oh deeper than scarification,

I am the aberration of your soul,

And your heart has followed me four blocks ducking corners

Every time I turn round to run into you,

You are only peeking,

I can’t trust.

It’ll be my death

And has me shuffling my feet

In marathon preparation

To put miles

And even oceans between your magnetic heart

And my steel emotions

I want to be cold to you, maybe you’ll fall for my guise

I pray you don’t end up between my thighs..

Again.

The bearing is unbearably beyond my threshold,

When you have me in your flesh’s hold

And I want to cry cause that dull aching's getting worse,

Cling tighter to my souls purse,

Cause you’re a known lover klepto

And have created a feeling I’m praying will let go..

Let go..

No you push your pseudo love into my pseudo chest

And my hearts skipping pseudo beats at best.

And that YES I screamed as you clutched my fist when I came

Has me crying out when in my alone-ness, your name..

And you never come, never came..

Never enough

My everything..

Somebody's fool

2010-04-17T17:39:00.004-05:00

And it all makes sense,

I say goodbye the best way I know how

Silence..

Silencio

Chloroform to lips, I’ve kissed you with the intent of killing,

Arsenic lipped affections,

I hope it hurts when I’m lovin,

The rubbing of tears from your eyes will last until our next life together

Foolin fools foolin’ who..

Who are you fooling?

And I wrap you cloaked within my love

Like we are illicit,

Some illuminati,

Some undercover fortress bearing wall writings

That profess our divine intervention in each others loves..

Not lives but loves..

I pray for your heartbreak without anesthesia

Liquor won’t drown me out your ears,

Where I spill from your on your back tears,,.

I take this lifes version of this lesson,

But its doesn’t lessen

The Versace heel in my back..

Doesn’t comfort me in my own created black,

Black blackness, spewing from mouths,

You’re the name I’ll cry out,

In the night,

Cold sweats playing hopscotch cross my spine

and all that’s mine is some out of line..

colorings on a page getting artistic,

when I should have stayed in my bounds..

but as a child I always followed every rule..

was time I played somebody’s fool..

the collector

2010-04-16T03:39:00.000-05:00

there you go tilting my world ear-side up..
enough is never
and so I weather the thunder,
where the hours spent with you not calling,
leave me falling in an upward spiral, baby I go viral..
tryin to cleanse the static,
know me as your addict,
inject your words in me,
and baby please,
OD..
over do it please.
when you're grippin' my hair in clutched fingers,
make this passion thicker than smog,
let it linger,
said I wanted to know you,
biblically,
wanted to know you
rhythmically,

know you like you're the cure
and I'm ailing,
It's you and me intimate
and the world is paling,
blind as stevie,
oh my eve we..
find the best apples
sink your teeth into this red,
in past lives swear I've bled
for you to say my name in your sleep..
to be the company you keep.
when you're keeping,
add me to your collection of beautiful things..
and then you'll seek another..
no one knows you better than me my lover.

loved you in my reign as queen
loved you in my raindrops..and in between..
them,

but in every life,

in every one..

You were gone before I'd even come,
still wet
when you said you were done...

Girl Blue

2010-03-26T21:21:00.005-05:00

fever from the temperature of your lips,
trippin' their way down my body's stairs,
you don't love me and I don't care..
with your smoke pillows, and your piano colored shoes
I want to sing your blues,
blue as hypothermia fingers,
send your chills down my spines elevator..
the crime being
that what you want doesn't bear your name.
cloud colored eyes, to match your smile,
and my root failed in your lair...
feel you in every single body hair,
pore..
pouring... from them
call you sweat, yet you know me like your neighbor
of me..
know of me..
you wear me like water does cherrywood..
stripped of my red blooded nature.
Breathing and sleep both become strange,
body possessed by the urgency to be possessed
by your blue, blue..blues baby...
want to take your heart mic to my mouth,
and sing you to orgasm,
my soprano, raspy as my need..
in need of your lubrication..
I plead..
and yes your rocks they get off..
in the soft soft murmur of dying to just be seen..
queen is nice, but courtesan will do..
if I get to sing your Blues..
left my shoes where you said,
laid in the bed you've seduced many a whore in..
stealing hearts all the time, baby the cops have a warrant
for your kleptomaniac news..
but before I turn you in my baby..
before I tell them come..
I am begging you to...

make me sing your abused,
bruised..
crushed berry..
blues..

Kryptonite

2010-03-26T20:47:00.001-05:00

and your brown,

your brown
has me falling up..
cause love can keep you standin',
but when it all comes falling down,
and it always comes falling,
I'll be here dancing
in my own rain..
hands over mouth, I change in telephone booths..
I don my red and blues,
do all the right there is to do
but when I'm human.

oh,
I'm human..
yes

my kryptonite is you..

you kiss those lifelines into me..
and they change form..
cancel out my emptiness
with your warm.

and when I'm breathing, think I'm breathin,
am I breathing..?
air even tastes better near your mouth,
your mouth went around my world in 80 days,
then in deep
and I didn't want you to ever
come out..

love at first night..
morning rock climbing my throat,
choking on trying to keep it down..
I want to swallow you like sound..
of words that never see light..

weakest me,
when I contest with all my fight..

damn you kryptonite..

darkest hour

2010-03-24T13:22:00.001-05:00

I will be your forever widow,

Because you stopped loving long before you were dead..

Dancing naked in the moonlight of my head,

You trickled down my veins like blood Coltrane..

Ohh.. always was a jazz-like feel to you when you made motions..

Oceans envy your water..waters edge..oh I’ve drank you in

You’re the hands over my lace covered throat, restricted before you ripped me

open DEVOURED..

Got underneath my skirt like the sun..

Likethesun

Warm and we crept into our own shadows, and made love between them..

Silhouettes like Julliard, Grace down our throats, where moans emanated.

Where did you go baby? ..and your half cup water eyes..

Remember our light..

Which murdered the dark in its sleep..

I love you..

LovemeLovemeLOVEME…

withdrawal

2010-03-24T13:20:00.002-05:00

sweet slug to the heart,

ever piecing stare into me

cause no one that I know has swagger like you..

swagger like..

DO IT

rope me up in your own defining definition,

call me what I am..

lips pinning me to walls.

bathroom stalls, stilettos ringing down halls..

click clacking, thighs smacking yours.

thunder clapping the roofs ass like Gods spanking..

moans reverberate repeatedly like chanting.

romancing, pull me up to my feet..

my neck between your teeth..

make me cry..

baby I ..

want your kind of hurt..

don’t I deserve..

baby deserve you at your worst..

sheets adhering to skin, from the sweat of the sin.

sweet as sin..

~~I’ll be your sweet ass sin..~~

and we can get high if I roll you up and light you aflame

lick you sealed and signed with my name..

sugar of the brown complexion.

oh sugar..let me be the deep belly desire in you..

when you come to

from your comatose. we do the most..

LOVE coming up your throat.. words dispersed in choked

out promises that you can’t keep..

and the knockings just begun from where you’ve hid me deep..

can’t eat,

cant drink,

cant sleep..

inside you I dwell comfortably.

the coolest breeze that tickles feet..

has you thinking bout me..

dreaming bout me..

my name is fantasy..

wait until we meet..

wait until we…

until we…

we..

meet…

Hard as my pen

2010-03-24T01:32:00.001-05:00

oooh baby need you in all your 40's Virginia love,

Stetsons beating the floorboards bareback,

slapping it's ass until morning turns its face

and nights stretch longer

Say baby... You're so fine.

Fine as all (remix) get in

Wanna take your thoughts into my mouth,

can I deep throat your pen?

There's a hunger that can only be fed never sated

beckoning bed unnecessary

cause even floors know our name

Screams drip from walls red

like I'm blowing your brains

figuratively speaking, I'm talking orgasms plural

cause there you go strummin' my pain like Lauryn, strummin

sugarcane voice, honey until it gets coarse

and the coarseness still leaking sweet

Remember my body?

Remember MY BODY?

Don't let it fall, and can't get up...

cause I want to see...

If my pen is bigger than yours..

Cost of pleasure

2010-03-17T01:04:00.001-05:00

I need a new fantasy,

Said I'm shopping fantasies

I have passionately lapped myself in desires fulfilled

and now I'm feeling ill, need a new version 2.0 thrill

Said I need a new fantasy

Have visions of being tied up fully clothed

for an all night kissing assault session,

releasing bite marks and other equally pleasurable forms of not love but aggression

I need a new fantasy

Maybe tired of bold and blatant f*cking

Maybe I just want to be liked..

Like me all day, like me well into the night...

Like me real hard, Like I'm a track and you're Nikes..

I need a new fantasy..

Not flame red steady cherry ripping

need a new fantasy,

something that will have me shoelace tripping,

while we swallow cosmos, searching for a star,

and no I'm not wishing

for sweaty sessions leave us both glistening,

sweet Jehovah

scream for God no more

but read your heart to me

I'm listening....

rather have you count my scars in all their macabre glory

tell me your mind, had never breathed before me...

Maybe my name, it won't precede me

I get shy too

someones got to believe me...

I need a new fantasy,

said I'm shopping ebay,

Craigs list,

hoping for some Good-will..

need a new fantasy..

will pay the greatest cost..

Like coffee

2010-03-17T01:03:00.002-05:00

There I am giving you brown eyes

Giving eyes all day and night...

eyes to make parted thighs stretch hips to birth

lust dripped lips

Giving you eyes

More brown than cacao bean

browner than an aired out bleed...

Eyes kissed with the sun as if glint evolved with me..

Giving you eyes,

Are you surprised?

By the lack of light in something so dark

that still reflects..

then tears souls apart..

Giving you eyes

Woman take these passion orbs and absorb me...

ooo I'm giving you my eyes

like heated sugar brown

just as sweet

maybe sweeter

eyes on a woman so fine,

you don't know if you want to f*ck or just be her...

giving you eyes..

caressing you without touch I bring fruition

enough to make a deaf mute try to listen...

for sound to match the sight

For the Record

2009-11-10T23:45:00.000-06:00

Put the needle on the record, said can I spill my heart across this record?,
Skipping, ever skipping like a heart beat..
But hearts don’t skip here, not without being tripped down the stairs,
So be merry on your way..
My hearts a cherry grave..
A bleeding slave,
To emotion…
But lets get scarred-back to my record,
Hear it crackle…feedback the record speaks..
Timeless,
Hear the record breathe
Purple milked sounds..
Eyes penetrate ground..
Craftier than others..
Play you backwards now my shadowed lover..
Spinning on the table..
Passionate and able..
Able to love again at my hands of healing..
Find my lifelines peeling…peeling back..
Scabbing over..
Now I know my position…
Track 3 interlude..
I come too fast, and end too soon…

See it was a night I laid awake contemplating love,
lightning raping the sky,
Thunder screaming out why..
Don’t turn away I watch,

Look me in my melted chocolate brown eyes..

I bob my head to the beat of the headboard,
Your stroke making the decision..
Maybe that’s how you got inside me
During that rare permission..
Emotions leak like candles melted..
Wonder if I ever felt it..
4,711 words for tears,
Maybe I did but you will never know..
Hope you enjoyed my innermost..
Flashback to being closer than close…
*damn it’s raining again*
Wonder how you amalgamate with even elements,
I have to wonder why, seems this record always calls for me..
Even though it breaks my heart..I

Put it on repeat..

My singing isn’t Etta James,
But I can make you feel things..

Feel

Said I can remind you..
How to feel
Things…

While the record skips…
A bruised blues
Its sings….

Deseo

2009-10-30T16:02:00.001-05:00

two fingers rubbed together, test this wet..

you solicited this lovers vet..

ran..

ran to your calling, now you're stalling while I stand over you..

leave you bawling, cry for me..I'll do the most to get you close.

to kissing the sky..take you where you want to go...

how deep can you fit me down your throat?

tried to fit the whole of you in my mouth, but your mind was awful big,

and I laid there admiring it,

stiff..

stiff...

strong mind of yours..

you lift my minds skirt unannounced ready to pounce, feline,

i want every ounce of you,

swallow moons to maintain my glow for your liking,

i stay piping

hot, give me fever on top of fever,

ready for the reaper

cause you're killing me... drilling me

there you go leaving scratches, fire matchless,

scratch your name deep in my skin..

sing the notes I want to hear,

g like the spot I'm caressing, guttural screams,

yell for me..

I drape you over my shoulder,

you flex your muscle to clench my tongue...

fifth time I made you come..

you screamed your pain..

pillow over face, could not hide the tremors pulsating through..

loving you makes me insane..

doing the same same same same things..

play your games with me...

taste of you still lingering,

imagine myself fingering...

your pages..lovers ageless,

you trap me in your walls..

I called you baby..

said I called you baby..

no answer..

pause..

silence between us is the time masturbating can't fix..

I want you and all your tricks..

tired of this restlessness..

stick me..

hit me..

whip me..

take me off the f*cking map..when you tap tap tap

tap

said you tap it

make me vapid..

empty..

thoughts don't live here anymore...just feelings...

please deliver

deliver me..

I am in great need of forgiveness

Can't you see..?

all I want to ever be..

wrapped inside

of you

Love becomes her

2009-10-25T02:52:00.002-05:00

I took a vow not to be celibate
But you’ll
Pay your toll to cross these waters..
You’ve no plastic that’ll suffice..
I charge hearts..souls..pleasure..
Aim to pleasure, please, tease, breathe me..
Silly siren..oh you thought your voice a guarantee..?
Nothings what it should be baby..
Butterflies on your tongue,
Swallow their freedom…
17 messages later I compare your love to fireflies..
glows long after murdered and crushed into skin
We stay pushed against walls,
Your index finger massaging my..
Temple….
YOU…don’t have to be gentle..
No need to pretend that you love me…
when innocence tries to make love, it has to call itself something else usually, cause angels come in secret.....
And goodwill will do well with my halo..
Someone needs it…
We all live to love another day...I lay you bare like the back of a runaway slave...
And you want to come over..
Come close enough to hear me sweat..
Can’t let…you in further..
I suspect…
cat-o-nine tales lashing,
You get under my skin…do it it in the open..
All the world can see..
I need to feel the weight of you on me... Your smell kissing my nose...inaudible moans at the tip of your lips...breathe...
On
My neck,…
See here I am telling secrets again…
Mata Hari in me sews my lips wide shut..
Can’t go off the deep end..
Never bend..I never bend…
Cactus on my tongue-I’ve spit venom tar pitted in the darkest cruel
I can't be schooled on lip service violence
But you’ve made me Pg-13, condensed..
Available in theaters…play me for your friends…
I’ve got something you can suck and blow…
It’s called your chance…
Tongues can break you know.... Say the wrong thing to the right person....
Tired of all your dress rehearsing..
Now give it to me nightly..
Lick my secrets from…my gun
Love me tightly…curve to the barrel

B.
A.
M.

You’re the one..

karma laid with yesterday and named their love child.. Ecstasy,
who then mothered passion and scream..
All of these things come hard with hands over mouths..
All of these things… I can’t live without…

take you in my hands…my mouth…take you in my eyes…
I'm here... For the soul undressing...

Coat my heart in paraffin wax so as not to aid in your digesting...
Cause I know the game so well..

Don’t you have a heart to sell…?

A little part of everyone has to live a lie…

I’ve told too many secrets tonight…

Love becomes her... It cradles her thighs...

she drinks it like water...

It spills when she cries....

Thriller

2009-10-18T03:11:00.002-05:00

The fingertip trails you left led their way to my hearts waters..
Which leaked beneath the bow of my spine..
I let it trickle down my back like you bathing me..
Moments baby..moments take your time..
And this is not that kind of happy ending-no loving hands performing blood coursing stimulation-for the duration of pain dipped pleasure
More often than not the feeling will linger in my mouth too long.
Sugar cane strong..
Lips brushing the course tasteless feel of longing..
Molten metal skin tipped off by your tell-tale tongue..

Like the feds on a job its no sting-I’m stung.. Present: come
preceded: came
Came screaming your name heard for miles..
Want to get lost up in those pillows you call lips.. Tongues touch like a jacket and crisp.. Air circulating cold b*tch slapping lungs
You rehearse and unearth me like a song you wrote sung..
I am young
Remember baby I am young
As you kill me..
Send static pulses through as you thrill me..
My soul is curried in New York flavor spicy... So I stay poet def-fight over my nikes-- I bleed loyalty--take no disrespect lightly..
But there you go saying again
That you like me..
Oooh fate you're so shy with your kisses -but when you hit it-you do it like you're the mrs.-- tell me you miss it... Tell me you miss it
Tell me you miss this..
feelings splayed open and pillaged..
Taken to the pyre,
It’s on fire…Heart village…
In the distance still the destruction is pretty..
You’ve turned out every light in my city..
Pandemonium comes..
Like the notes we strummed til’ the waking of the sun..
Left me undone..
Lips splayed open truths spilled…
After being introduced to the thrill….

smooth criminal

2009-10-18T02:43:00.000-05:00

Cacao beans your eyes have potential for sweet..
Lay with you

stars speckle your face..
Tears of silver.
I’m allergic to your emotion..
Rub you in my skin lotioned silky like..
I’m not hyped but calm..
Calm enough to lay you out..
Flat..
Knocked down, love knocks..
Will really knock you Joe Frazier..
Before I get caught up in this seizure..
Can I see some ID..?
Cause you fingerprinted to get in..
Eyes scanned,
Panned my world..
Bypassed security,
Promising security..
Rapped to me..
Like it’s your first LP
Have that street fire..
Dunked my mental donut in your coffee desire..
And I melt in your mouth..
Said I melt in your mouth…
say you want too… say you want to do what we do under the stars.
Count each one and label them yours, mine , ours…
Late night hours, you laughing in my ear..
Damn how did you get here?
There I go taking you seriously
No matter if I appear delirious ..
I breathe..
Try to take it slow..
But there’s no slowing with you,
Even in our empty moments.
Feelings growing

now grown as ever..
Sneaking out their room..
And there I am pulling your hair,
Hurts too good to come too soon…
Bite your tongue..
Some things are good aged..
But get on this young..
Bounce on me…neon slinky sprung..
Know you like the way I dig..
When I’m digging..hit earth..
Rationality forgot its way, so it can’t hit her..
While I’m hitting,
getting
Splitting..
But more than anything..

Digging..

Her best..

still
I can't bring myself to confess..

Heartbreaker

2009-10-18T02:03:00.000-05:00

There’s a technologically savvy way to say come f*ck me..
Its called a phone..
Lay awake biting my lips at 3 AM
17 tries before I draw blood..
Tastes like your love..
Insane pained..drained, ignorance..
Swallow this cranberry truth..
It hurts to love you..
Let the binding of us begin…us sado maso tryo..
Cry oh..
Sexuals..
Cry oh…cry cause I’m coming and you gave no permission..
You thought I’d fall for your charms disarmed on a battlefield..
I’ve been broken long before you tried..
Tongue tucked in for another war..
I’ve scars you’ve yet to uncover..
Lover
Tell me do you love her..?
I bet I’m the sweetest fool you’ve ever known..
Precious touches when we’re alone..
I bob my head like we’re rocking out,
Cause you are rock, rock, knocking it out…
Rock
Rock…
Rocking my world..
I’m swirled, twirled and wound upside down emotions
Can’t go crazy,
Hazy nights with us under covers
Wash them…cause they’re dipped in our scent..
The nights I spent hell bent on proving
My matrix was better than any you’d ever
Had a taste of
Cherry lipped kisses..
Cocoa moon
Sky split tongued…crying hot chocolate rain..
Steam for me..
Heat to skin..I am beginning
Too see you for the profound stranger you are..
And I know you’ll break my heart…
As I lay down again…
Wonder how much I can take..
Deep down I know..
I gave myself for the taking…
I want to solicit this break..
Take me..
I’m here for the breaking…

surrender

2009-10-13T00:55:00.000-05:00

mmmm that's the sound I make
when you take from me the forsaken truth of me and you
wrapped limb and limb, in this sinfully subdued world...

I'm just a another girl
you promised forever..
that was just meant to be your muse...
across your world
tip -toeing my blues..
gleefully my heart strewn open all too soon
Invited you to my room..

let down my hair...

did the dance of lovers ghosts..
lovers far and lovers close, juxtaposed gyrations..
how deep can you go with no penetration?
melt to me meld to me, leak over me like liquors smell never to leave..
Make me believe the lies of love

Relieve me of my senses because all senses say to run
Tell your shadow to stop following.
I've forgotten how to swallow..
grown shallow..
hollowed ocean..
too deep yet easy to swim
Forget me..
lest you regret me..
Isn't that what you say to avoid the crying..?

Flying wingless..

How'd you find me..?

I led you here..

Don't remind me..

Skin of sand...take my hand..
I want to walk the waters with you..
do the impossible..

with you..

the never ever.
whispered secrets..
late night stretched..
moonlight deep..
I
want to follow you

helpless as your shadow..

on the hottest day in summer..

even if someday you'll hate me..

placate me

Baby

Placate me...

Touch-less orgasm

2009-10-11T17:54:00.001-05:00

I let you…come inside..me
No…not physically..
Nothing a touch could begin to fathom..
Rhythmically I let you vibe to the beat of my heat..
Rap to me til sun up..
Soul pressed against the glass..
You weren’t feening for ass but kisses..
Sweet warm melted butter
Kisses of a loving lover.
And that’s when you came..
Came inside of me
Not an objectified desire
Wasn’t feeling bootylicious…no
but like if you could impregnate me with kisses..
you would still seek those butterfly wishes from my mouth..
Damn and when you went south of my mental border,
my pants stayed on..
Though I could have fell up out..
Ease yourself across my wonder
Not seeking to take and plunder.
But to wreak sweet havok like thunder..
No hurt upon the earth but quaking a heart…
And that is when you came..
Came inside me..
Place my hand to a heart in the darkest of dark.
To feel your actuality
You lay there naked soul naked..
Moments rain felt the need to be accomplice too..
And I want to cry,
A bowl of heart soup..
All my words after colored blue..
I thought that I was finally dream-proof..
All along you were coming true..
And I let you come inside me..
No…not physically..
Nothing a touch..
Could even imagine…

Klepto...Mania (moments)

2009-10-11T17:51:00.001-05:00

I lay awake jade green..
Fear sneaks behind my heart.. serpentine
Temperature rising,I’ve been bitten
By the infected silence between us..
Climbing my heart tree, you cling to the leaves..
And here I am at the top arms open scared to jump
The thump..
Thump…
Of me hitting the ground is kissing the future..
And I can’t bear fruit,
Not the truthful fruitful kind..
While slowly strangling in this dangling place..
Push hair out your face..
Are you true..?
Skin aglow and all you want is me..
Is me..
Is we..
The fears make out with all that’s within their grips
Tend to come at night
Like nightmares..
No invites but the plight of them all too real…
I need to feel you beyond the touching..
You say you’re here
but the wonder resides..
What dark you must hide…
Secrets cascade through the stream of my blood
At the pace of liquor
Tell me yours..
Before they bare themselves..
I have held you through our breaking..
I’ve heard secrets like soul grates..just scraping..
Away at the truth..
I fear the time when I am not with you..
This is what is true..
Of me
And you

Inamorata

2009-10-11T17:47:00.001-05:00

I am LOVE incarnate
I can flow through the clogged arteries of any non believer…
Place flowers upon heart graves..
Free mental slaves from bondage..
My love when in its purest form is a commitment to OD..
Taste this pure..
The constellations want to marry me..I count the million days I have to set aside..
Splay myself open, climb inside..
My mind is split in two, what is real and what is true..
Did you not know those to be two separate types of lover..?
You trace your hieroglyphics here as if new..
If only you knew..I wrote those stories in tombs
Before you pillaged a womb..
I cannot fit into the daily basis of rules and regulation.
Because what I have needs satiation
To live is such a task..
Feel me…
I just want you to feel me mornings after.
I swing from rafters chime the wind with my glass inner workings..
Soul in captivity..
Come watch me feed..
I dwell in stolen mouths..
Words that could teach a pyramid it’s a glorified sand castle..
I lay sleepless in the night of this battle..
Love and war..both scar..
Bloody trenches I advance with bow and arrow
Spare no one who doesn’t believe in me…
Kiss the sparrows with song..
I travel all night long guns to backs..
I will set you free within your own freedom
Slave..
Slave to realty..
We’re following stars and moons to each other..
Ever been in love with love..
My lover..
?

minds on fire...

2009-10-11T17:45:00.001-05:00

They are burning books..said baby they are burning books..
It’s a bonfire in the middle of the world called America…
I question if my existence is futile..it’s a war of minds out there..
And no one cares..
No one cares..
The bookends cant hold us up we are all becoming magazines..
Spineless than a motherf*cker
I chase some sort of mental sustenance hungry for Alice to walk-er ass out of hiding..
Bombarded with the street stories, my ears are tired, of being set on fire…
higher learning only matters when you’re earning six figures
And a womans greatest weapon is a figure of 6 minus four..
I can’t ignore it, there is no passion and being passionate in a passion-less world
Is a free spirit getting married..
I’m getting carried to the pyre
With my baby
Knowledge..
I possess more street than all the books
Of an entire college..
But I want to know better..
No one writes letters..
Letters…
I find my pencil can no longer keep up with my mind..
This is a bind,
For an old soul..
I let the techo flow make me bold,
Dress my words in Versace..
But the truth is the extra,
That’s all that is NOT me..
I’m complicated simply..
I say what I mean when I’m saying what I mean…
And I’m meaning what I say when I’m saying
I don’t give a f*ck..
I remembered where I was when the Fugees pumped the speakers..
And I could look up to and not get f*cked by my teachers
I’ve got a hard on for learning..
Teach me something new break me off something legit..
Cause telling me readings unnecessary is what it is..
Something like it feels better without protection…
bullsh*t..
Cause see they are burning books baby..
Every day is 9/11...
And knowing how to pop your ass
Won’t give the keys to heaven..
And they are burning books baby..
It’s only matter of time before they can plagiarize your mind..
And when it’s done is nothing we can undo…
When they’ve burned that final book…
I’m not asking where were you..
I’m asking..
What you knew..

Sati

2009-10-02T01:53:00.000-05:00

Mmm I like to start my fantasies with mmmm because it’s flirtatiously dirty
You don’t deserve me but don’t desert me..
You unnerve me..
Stilettos sucked..
I bet I could f*ck
You mental something proper..
We’ve unraveled souls in an soul unraveling race..
I run to keep up with your mental pace..
Oooh I love a chase..

Just
a
taste...

I want to ride your stiff mind soft..
It’s a craft of minds..
You find me to be what you longed for..
I abhor the way you play..
Please stay …no go away..
I let this psychosis blow over,
I chose you..come closer..
Close enough to be my dictator..
My own mental masturbator..
You are an impeccable orator ..
We go in and out,
In and out of this ..

Voices calling,

I’m hearing you at night..
Invite your consumption..
You are trumped
I don’t play chess but

I will check your mate…

we sit and debate the possibility..
You dodge with agility the answer
And inside I am your dancer..
Slave to your puppeteer strings…

Bring me to the light..

Gladly its all at stake the taking of me
to define Me?
for you?
I am glued as any darkness is to light..
Delivered in your plight..
Wrong my right…
I lose sight of sanity..

Kiss my own vanity..

Then slap her senseless too..
Torn in between the two..

In love with me..

in love with

YOU…
1:25 am

Rawr....

2009-10-01T01:03:00.000-05:00

Pain is pleasure..awful lesson... I grow stiffened... Back erection..
You proceed, its heart digestion...
Vampire nights
Thought I had the sharper bite...you often prove me wrong at night....
Can't breathe... Until You to feed... On my need
Open lipped smile, Perfect for the heartbreaking
I am draping my heart in metaphor so the taking...
Doesn't so easily come for a while
All that comes easy is weak...isn't strong...
why do you think it takes most women so looonnnngggg.... ?
Its night where all the wild things are...
Some fetishes deep...
Some fantasies scar...
Some people sleep...
Some share the stars
I tap at your loves coffin... And you come alive...
Exacting your rages...
Leave puncture wounds on my thighs
I say Baby the sheets, you only bite harder
Break me of any other want with your ardor
I grow weakened every second-Heart beckoned come hither
cause we all know it's not about how deep you go but intensity.....
ardor baby,
ardor
BABY!
bite me...you know it excites me॥... be gentle....
not the same when its lightly...
make me reminisce on the night we... we...
we came 360
in every position, all the directions... but anyway...excuse my digression....
so you bit me...
the knowledge of it hit swiftly...
cause I became one of yours at first bite...
a lover consumed by
all of your night....

of great loves...

2009-09-29T19:08:00.000-05:00

But we’ll always have forever …
This last tear lingers as the shower washes me of you..
The aching overtaking…soul raping….
Take it…take it baby..
I want no more than you to cease this heart abortion..
It was always love extortion
I volunteered my stock information…
Impatient for understanding..
And you came commanding
Otherworldly archetype..
I’ve set my world on fire…
Desire the match..
And I wonder if it will rain tonight…
I invited it..
Tonight..

I ignited it..

begging... broken...on all fours.... just to be a thought of yours...
I divulge my soul to you in a way that it stays in your possession..I have a lot to lose...but I've already learned this lesson

Loss 101

I crawl over gypsy eyes and dew decked mornings to present my earth stretched tears..
I combine with coffee like any good addition but I also have my fears.....
My heart beats outside my chest...
I’ve crimson tears upon my vest..

Do I love you..?

Heart
says
Yes

(and now for an impromptu blogging-YES! I think outside of poetry!)

I asked someone once…. What is the definition of love to you?

The response was unconditional loyalty and respect. It’s being there for someone no matter what. Other people might come and go. You might have feelings for other people, you might get angry with this person or disappointed but ultimately you always come back. That’s what true love is.

We have all spent time going back; but if the loving is ultimate forgiveness, then why do some people say goodbye?

I have had great loves. The ever transforming, I cannot breathe without you loves. I have ached and been beaten and broken by love. I have given years and time and devotion to love. I have had love throw my love back at me as a weapon sharpened because my love is fierce. When it comes to love I am a Carrie/Samantha. One part of me overwhelmed with the butterflies and joys love brings, the other all consuming passion and need. I have been with only select people intimately but all passionately, all loved. I often wonder if love was a career choice because I have relocated for love, I have been ready to move in for love. I have lied when asked, I have been honest when asked. My loyalty is unmatched. I have devoted countless hours and energy to feeling those feelings. After that I worked overtime trying to record every bit of those emotions for the safekeeping because most love is ephemeral. So love… and I speak to love the emotion directly, not a person, Love…. Where’s my check?

Sins of the sweeter persuasion

2009-09-28T16:11:00.000-05:00

There is amaretto left from where you tasted me
A lip lock of ageless passion,
I fashion myself to your every desire..
There is fire…
Beneath cool skin…
Chills within this space vacuum
You annihilate time we bind as lovers of past
Our vast knowledge far exceeds this life…
My fingers are of history’s thread... Anne Boleyn... But don't lose your head...
I’ve got tears in a hand that could use swallowing..
There's a choked up speechless girl where words flow profusely..
You know not how many years I lay silenced…

Waiting

Waiting

For you..

To unzip lips un-kissed..
I’ve misted worlds as mother nature..
It is in my nature to feed you…

Apples of Eden..
Forbidden solace..
We bind within each others need to feel completed though whole..
We mix our souls..
Into a brew for the
Hearts melting..
In the distance… never leave belting
At the top of lungs unprepared for the weight of any hurt so deep
Love me…
Love me…
Tenderly knowingly, you ran the sands of time…..clung to the hourglass innards..
We are all beautiful sinners…
I am willing to repent nothing in loves relation…
My soul impatient
for the day I can defend the emotions..
That left lines in palms..
I am calmed
Only by the loves I’ve lived..
Forgive me… not

If it is wrong to love you..

I will forgo the light

Of living in the right..

A jones for love

2009-09-28T16:06:00.000-05:00

I let my jones for you relax into being just that..
A jones..
These night sweats cant be of your missing…
Cause I took that midnight train to nowhere…
Can’t miss something you chose to leave..
My mind deceives me...
Believe me..
I comb my hair tentatively, wishing you’d come from behind
Those light footsteps of yours stay on my mind..
The hours for which I pined for your affection,
north star on my heart still you lost direction..
The lesson being that love…
Love lives where you rest your heart…
Tattered heart..gray with lack of air..
I just wanted to feel you in my lair..
The way you used to run to my center..
Many winter ago..
There was no way for me to know
A past life can deliver a jones….
Not like this..
I tiptoe through life hoping you’d forget me
Before the day comes in love when you regret me..

It never comes…

Like a woman scorned in affection..
I make avoiding you my own profession
Travel miles to distance the passion..
Still we come together three worlds over…
You pull me closer..
All the closer.

S
t
i
l
l
The breathing pales..
Always fails when it comes to you…
You’ve got honest hands..
And I can’t understand whether my love can be true…
When we’re both belting the blues..
Heavy emotion hanging from the sky..
I cannot lie..
And God knows I can’t deny..

you…

Desire and you..
are like marrow and bones..

Love you pained…

For you…
I jones..

Once Bitten

2009-09-28T15:35:00.000-05:00

Sweep me up in your black widow lashes..long to be bitten.

Could it be?... I can’t be smitten…dawn never comes when your moon falls..

I call your name in the throes of night…aching from your bite…

Leave your marks like waters scald..

Place your lips here… my body called…

write yourself amongst my necks glory..

Love me please so it’s no lie..our story…

I cry into your pillow..salted oceans..shallow gifts..

Must be magic I can’t lift you..

Off ..

Don’t want to lift your spell..

Tap dance aficionado, you leave footprints cross this heart..

Wear a scent that is unforgivable…

A scent that can’t depart…

Wooded passion, you make even nature green..

Envy your waters… ever clean…

Thirst for you until I am of the dust

Confide in you.. inconceivable trust,..

I think you might be my souls mate…

I ache for your face to bury itself with haste

Into me

Baby here you are safe…

Don’t be scared.. hands trapped within hair..

Kiss me I am there…

For you to kiss me..

State your intentions Egypt eyed goddess..

Raise you head…

You’ve no need to be modest..

Cause I want you..

This is no elementary desire..

California…you take me by fire…

I exhale at your beck and call..

The want in me citadel tall..

And frantic as city rush hour streets..

I breathe a new beat..to your rhythm

Your tides…wished you’d exact your many moods

On my thighs…

I am high….incomparably high.

In the distance I hear…

Sade…

By your side..

forever…

I am here for the ride…।

Mark me…

It was love at first bite...

Play with Nikki

2009-09-09T11:31:00.000-05:00

I let you flow through my hair like Georgia winds...
While on grassy dream fields...
I can't fight... I can't yield... Just feel... I just feel
F*cfked proper…
I want you to mentally pillage me... Burn my villages... Set them free
Take it if you must, thrust your heart into my envelopes..
I will mail you rush…
Make your every cell blush with the lush touches..
See we can strap up on the moon-
Ride it to eclipse-Make it slip up... Criminal within grips of the law
Cause I’ve got thighs for stirrups..
If you slip cause its tight,
You better get up…
Get up..
Get up
My souls stirred like coffee and cream...no woman is the way that she seems...
But if you come between my body and heart..
I will artfully start skin arson…
Aflame..you are pained with your need..
Can’t you see..?
It is me…
rewind my tape I'm starring-
if I f*ck u I am scarring u
name written in skin..
sweet as sin..
Don’t you know you speak to me…
I love it when you streak to me… star cross the sky..
I will electrify you..
Make my tongue the end of your thoughts-
Come on it as if u had bought the rights
To producing the freak in me
Freak in me…
Freaking me…
There you go hide and go seeking me…
Told you

shhh listen....
You’re not ready
For this permanent fever..
Cold sweats when you think of me..
Lost bets when you think of me…
Stay wet when you think of me..
Think of me…
Think of me…
Lose it while thinking of me…
Say you’ll do anything

Cause

I

Will

Do

A
N
Y
T
H
I
N
G

Lovers quarrel

2009-09-09T10:46:00.000-05:00

its a sweet summer.... one of intimate thunders... plausible wonder...

Know that I’m going under

The undertoe of your heart has intentions for mine

I find myself underwater breathing..

Conceding to you,

Bleeding morality and in totality

Nakedness of this love..

Is as pure as Cuban snow

I toss it in the air..

Addictions never knew me til love

Love is the woman that called me eleven times in the middle of the night

I was a child when she told me futile was my fight..

My heart ever chasing her..

She’s always around the corner

Tears in eyes..

I fantasized finality..

So she couldn’t find me..

Still she sweetly handed me cyanide and kissed

Fingertips…

With bright red lips of know…

That I would never let her go..

Crying she’s dying to breathe what is left of me…

Dying to cry out my name…

Love is a possessive lover too…

Love can conjure pain…

Insanity in the air…

I can breathe her..

Deep down,

She knows that I need her..

We are star-crossed..

All our ever afters stained…

We are star-crossed

Without the other,

Not quite the same…

Novembers Daughter

2009-08-13T00:50:00.000-05:00

Tenured soul my vineyard transcends time
The silence of your dreams that don’t involve me rings..
Like blues singers drunken notes…
Sing me to liquored death
Pinpricks from within.. Your voice lingers..
The faces flow by in silent blur
I’ve kissed goodbye Ten thousand times
in my mind..

Oh why

Oh I..

Never foresaw the dawn
countless nights and you're turning over
Coming closer..been partial to singing my blacks..
Blues never quite encompassed the opposite of loving..
Mosquito lover, you kiss me with a taste for blood..
Love me tender..
My soul is New Orleans…My new york heart cannot compare
When I make love I’m new Orleans
When new york I’m pulling hair..
Take my backwoods darling
Take those dirt roads if you dare..
Take my backwoods darling..
My hearts backwoods know no fear..
Journey to me on the bridges you built to run away..
I’m like those red roads honey..
Leave myself amongst the air..
Scented heavy..Sense my struggle..
Love me tired..
Saxophone in the air..
Take me home when you love me..show me the God within..
Grind your love against me listless..
Take your dance with Mrs. Sin…

You will never leave me like the others

Kiss me once I’ll own your name..
Make me come I’ll flow through veins..
Fear me with the greatest of ease.

I was born knowing what pleases..

You....

Novembers daughter watch them fall…
Novembers daughter..
I’ve loved them

All

august 12, 2009 copyright

Casualty

2009-08-13T00:42:00.000-05:00

There is no solid, our metamorphosis stands stiller..
Stiller than a night kissed with gunshot sounds..
Killer flavor.. It’s not swagger you possess, nothing so raped and pillaged..
Fornicated, birthed and bled…
It’s temperature rising, syrup in a voice, instilled moral compass,
Want to kiss your elbows because they join you..
Never f*cked a mind so fervently..
Never felt the need so urgently.. You’re 9/11 the night before..
Screaming in the distance..I can’t feign the kismet stare..though we have nothing to go on but hope..
You stroke …damn
Your stroke..
f*cking stroke has me mentally open.. emotionally clandestine
Destiny oh it had to be some sort of fate..
Is it fated..?
I thought I was jaded..
Make it..
Make it stop baby..
Please..
On bruised knees open and gently spread…
Give me oral…
Oral precision to show me my own position..
Remember us..
Oh we were thing of legend ..
Cleopatra..
Steal away at night to be your chamber slave..
Will build pyramid and sun…
For parted lips kiss..
You are the one..
Turquoise wonder…
No more blue than green..
Trained lives over.. Long to swim your river Nile..
Breaststroke style..
I’m a funk-daphile
Show me your bombastic wiles..
Long for you in the throes of becoming woman of child..
Half way smiles..
I am compiled..
Of our history’s dance..
Gripping air to hand you..
The heart of true romance..

Amongst a silent war..

I yearn to be your sacrifice

Kill me softly..

take

Your

Time

copyright aug 12, 2009

Tailor Moon

2009-08-13T00:37:00.000-05:00

Lips of fire, kissed with red…
Prints upon my pillow..
Leave me darling..suns coming slow..

Leave me now..
Maybe she’ll never know..

Love you summer..
Skin aflame..whisper first then bawled your name..
Cried in dark crevices of soul you’ve never touched..
Love you over and over I’ve loved.
Untouchable heart..
Pliable morals..
Kisses hinted amaretto..

Leave your mark here..she can’t see..
The broken places you coaxed surfaced to complete
This transference

Sheets to chin..stilettos strewn..
Shared this moon.
I will never lay with you til’ noon..

Will never find never too soon..

Your lip prints on my pillow…

Soul infrastructure ruined..
Til’ you come knocking..

Lips ready to split me once more…
Midnight hour eyes..
I can’t ignore

Red lipped seamstress
Sew me up…

Invisible threads to heal

Your handy work

august 12, 2009
copyright

Seems like you're ready

2009-08-02T18:40:00.000-05:00

When i dream of you its lucky..its grasshopper green...
whirred blurred absurdity..erotic coffee..

I cream..

Rhythmic pulses...jet black star...
sweet sugared laugh..

I don't know who u are

*69 to heaven...
god said you called baby

Called out my name..

Don’t utter if you’re not screaming..
Whats sex if its not with me..?
Tongues touch its a battle cry..
a joyous insane
Cry into my mouth
its pleasure in pain
tongue fluent in orgasm..
ink your spot with my name

See me In the plural, hands all over..three way

mind
body
soul

f*cking..
No temporal adherence..
Cause I’m the place you have to be…
Your silhouette is feeling me..
You shake with my hips delivery..
Shock on your tongues tip...

imagine us pressed close doing the most
Sipping you like mimosa..

I wanna taste..

Dip my tongue in your thoughts..
Lick your fantasies true..

Stilettos on,
The damage you do..
When those thighs climb my back..
Can I come in..?
Tap your souls window with a rhapsody unknown..
Your face blood red..heat of kisses I’ve blown..

Baby I’m grown..
Label me MA..
Sashay.. Wind… dip your back…
Tease me if you can deal with the aftermath..
Laughs*

Muffled in the dark..want to walk naked cross your heart..

Keep my heels On…

Ready..?

It seems so..

Copyright 2009

Sweet Solanum

2009-08-02T01:09:00.000-05:00

Silence me with this belladonnas kiss.
Lips traced with the shade of your loves night..
I won’t fight..
Scream only if it’s to your pleasure..
Make you shake at any measure,
To any degree..
Want me..
Want me….inexplicably…
Dream of me, wake in your sheets..
Covered in inconceivable wet..
Bless you with the sweet compulsion,
To make me elicit full body convulsion..
Seize for me..
Shake…..bite tongues..
Scream you hate…
Hate how much you love it..
Sweetest narcotic…
I leak through your system incandescent
Your glow whispers you’re aflame… My name..
Signed on you with my tongues stain…
Long to make your eyes constellations..
Filled with planets and stars
Justify you with patience..
Know each of your scars..
Kiss them beautiful..tentative flesh..
Urge you..no dare you to test…
Try me…
I will give you love no less than riotous yells..
In a war that befell …
Your body..
Scream help from your withdrawal cell..
Melt all over…
Sweat symphony…music to my ears..
Sheets annihilated, salt of your tears
Voice muted..
Sum of your fears…
That I’m here…have arrived..
Kissed you alive…
Ill fate you provide…
You can’t pull away, hair in your eyes..
Instant release.. my hand up your thighs…
Lies..
You feed me sweet… tries…
Maybe I…
switched our wine glasses tonight

Lady sings my Blues

2009-07-27T22:29:00.000-05:00

I want to make you sing the blues...lady..
can only be swallowed deeper mentally if I licked the ink of a poem you wrote..
cannot imagine I could come close enough to make close enough, enough..
because your sweat was designed to be combined lyrically with mine..
in a sheet symphony that brings you home before the street lights on..
calling,
calling me now..
I kissed you multi-lingual..

te quiero

I want to be the native that is your tongue..
I want to make you sing the blues...lady...
trace your contours with a touch that soft will never divorce
of course I yearn to reassure you with lips dipped in honey..
so if you have to run it's never from me..
but into my center

enter..

please enter slow as if virgin
my hearts dark still bears it cherry..
blossom from within,
reeling from feelings cataclysmic in zeal
make me feel you in la noche..
because
I want to make you sing the blues....my sweet lady

give kiss as if to part....passionate..dipped in morning dew..
tearful parting kisses to start
a souls apocalypse...
dance across past broken hearts debris..
I will sweep you.. sweep you into me...
make you sing guttural thoughts, grinding our bodies something lyrical..
CPR will not sustain you..
the caustic soul that you have bared..

I will let you ride my tear-glossed past to an aftermath
only being broken can teach you at last...
I was broken to learn to give healing kiss..
Kiss me...
You want to kiss me...
Miss me....
someday you'll miss me...
christen this house...all of these walls with the soft whimpering
of a lovers calls...
Make them vibrate and pulse..
make them staccato or lulled

I want to make you sing the blues..
my lady...

blues for me...

10:20 July 27, 2009 ⓒ

All the Closer

2009-07-26T18:42:00.000-05:00

I'd give you my love in the pits of destitution
because all you need to have to love me..is the ability...
To create possibility...

Darling your mind is the compass
I follow blindly..
Take me to the night where reggae drips from the sky..
Our sweat becoming lovers without our merging..

Dance upon mi..

Solicit a rhythm my heart can groove too
Extract of me the exact measures to which you can inhale me
So your breaths create constellations
Spit fire..tongues split wide open I was hoping
You’d get poetic..
For on your lips lie my own high strung ..unsung heroes..
Each word you utter epic..

If my heart ran on frequency
Your name would be static major
Can’t hear my thoughts when you’ve entered
And you’ve entered with an explosion
Path to my heartaches erosion

Piano I don’t want to learn your music to read you
Just want to caress each mental key lightly..
Until our song is written

Sweet unrehearsed surface,
I want to be the canvas for you to paint your tears
Fears and all intuition..
Want to bind your scattered pages together
Publish your dreams..
Have unsolicited ever before kisses
To match your blueberry seams

Kiss you wild again

Untamed, unbroken, un-you
Forever aching for the taking but I don’t have to take of you
To love you..

Be truer than true
If you
Translate all secrets
Keep them not thought its scary..
Trample my mental fields of strawberry..
I want you too feel free to be who you are..

I want to love
All you were….
Are..
Will be..
I want you to love me..

Me…

But do you see me?

5:50 pm July 26th, 2009
&copy

Unfaithful

2009-07-24T23:37:00.000-05:00

Thunder competes with your hearts beat..
Break you apart in a way that echoes like your conscience..
Will never say sorry..
Cause you deserve the pain..
Saute your heart in tears..
Feed it to you…
Swallow down..
Said
Swallow down
Down down..
Remember you said you’d never hurt.
Hurt me in the worst way,
Got to reenact the pain..
Will drive you insane..
Imagine your closest confidant all over..
She loves me.. Loves me..
Taste her on my tongue..
Suck her from me..
Does she feel good to you?
Pull out your hair…unbelievably torrential screams
come down from the sky you broke open once..
Kissed that closed…made love until it folded over..
Come like never before knowing I know you as you are..
Know you as your lies.. Kiss them individually true..
Piano stroke your keys on down til you symphony orgasm, high lows..
Pull those heart strings..
Play with those precious things..
Inside of her I went deeper than ever… like a ball cut from it’s tether..
She screamed that she didn’t care..
Your friend.. Is that your friend baby..?
Was I your friend baby..
Was she your “friend” baby
The other…
Bet you couldn’t even come.
Some have green…I have a pleasure thumb..
Intuition slapped silly… left your girls smell on my collar..
Taped the way she said she loved me.. said she loved me while I rode her..
Told her..told her it’s all experimental..
She said break me, but be gentle..
I gave her body full throttle
She yearned to learn Aristotle..
Turn from you… step out panties.. Pin hair up to bare..
The way her nails kissed my skin..
Rough like love/hatred//
Too much to bear..
Cry..
I’m not sorry..
You deserve to stare in space..
See her…..my …face..
Deserve a little taste…
Tell me how she tastes…
Amaretto lover..
Ask me if I love her..
Ask me..

And if I do?

10 ish July 24, 2009